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For anyone that wasn't here a few months ago when I made the first thread about it, you won't know what I'm talking about. For those of you that helped out then and know what I'm talking about, I think you'll be happy for me, LOL. Well, it's my birthday today. As you guys know, I was pretty much obsessed over an ex named Caitlin, even when I was dating Jaime (another ex now unfortunately). I've been having strange feelings concerning Caitlin lately, and until now I didn't know what they were all about. Well now that I think about it, I think I've known this for a long time I just didn't want to believe it myself. I realized that I didn't spend quite so many nights obsessing over how much she hurt me and what I could have done different. I realized that I don't really mind what guy she is dating *even though she isn't dating anyone*. Then the other night I started thinking about her, wondering what she was thinking and then I realized...I didn't care.
*sigh* I stopped loving Caitlin today.
I was talking to her just earlier on my cell and I told her these things. I think I hit her a little ahrd with it, but I explained myself and I think she's a little better now. I just told her that I've been thinking about it and I don't know how to say it or how she's going to feel. Then I just told her, "I don't love you anymore". 'Ouch', was her initial response. She started crying but then I consoled her just a little by telling her that I don't totally not love her, I really hope that I can be together with her in the future and that I really really like her and I really love her as a friend. But unfortunately, I can't love her like I want to anymore. Atleast not now. I am too fucking depressed to deal with loving her anymore, and it's the best birthday gift in the world to realize that I no longer am in love with this girl.
Sorry, those of you that know about my last thread will understand. I don't remember the last time I've felt this good, I cried earlier from feeling so relieved. Thanks to all of you that helped out with my problems.
"He said I'll love you till I die"
She told him, "You'll forget in time"
As the years went slowly by
She still preyed upon his mind
He kept her picture on his wall
Went half crazy now and then
He still loved her through it all
Hoping she'd come back again
Kept some letters by his bed
Dated 1962
He had underlined in read
Every single, "I love you"
I went to see him just today
Oh but I didn't see any tears
All dressed up to go away
First time I'd seen him smile in years
He stopped loving her today
They placed a wreath upon his door
And soon they'll carry him away
He stopped loving her today"
*sigh* I stopped loving Caitlin today.
I was talking to her just earlier on my cell and I told her these things. I think I hit her a little ahrd with it, but I explained myself and I think she's a little better now. I just told her that I've been thinking about it and I don't know how to say it or how she's going to feel. Then I just told her, "I don't love you anymore". 'Ouch', was her initial response. She started crying but then I consoled her just a little by telling her that I don't totally not love her, I really hope that I can be together with her in the future and that I really really like her and I really love her as a friend. But unfortunately, I can't love her like I want to anymore. Atleast not now. I am too fucking depressed to deal with loving her anymore, and it's the best birthday gift in the world to realize that I no longer am in love with this girl.
Sorry, those of you that know about my last thread will understand. I don't remember the last time I've felt this good, I cried earlier from feeling so relieved. Thanks to all of you that helped out with my problems.
"He said I'll love you till I die"
She told him, "You'll forget in time"
As the years went slowly by
She still preyed upon his mind
He kept her picture on his wall
Went half crazy now and then
He still loved her through it all
Hoping she'd come back again
Kept some letters by his bed
Dated 1962
He had underlined in read
Every single, "I love you"
I went to see him just today
Oh but I didn't see any tears
All dressed up to go away
First time I'd seen him smile in years
He stopped loving her today
They placed a wreath upon his door
And soon they'll carry him away
He stopped loving her today"
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